During the fight, Dilliat exploded, which was no surprise given that's kind of his thing. Then we had to fight the tank. I hate those things. This one shocked anyone that hit it with lightning. It also shot lightning.

We lost two friends, Thormir and Cressida. Vestra's arm was blown off by a cannonball. I can't fix that. I don't know if I can bring Thormir or Cressida back. I've failed at it before. They might change their minds. Thormir left a damned letter saying goodbye. I'm worried he won't want to return, and I don't blame him, or anyone. Not really.

Somewhere during the fight, (not long after I was shot with lightning) my thoughts wandered to how different my life might have been had Faemonn Crane never come to Procellas. This... is all really hard. Really really hard. We're barely more than a handful of people trying to stop these monsters from turning the world into an even darker place, and it's cost us everything. Friends. Family. Freedom.

When you listen to stories about heroes of the past, you never hear this part of the tale. You don't hear about the part where the heroes are exhausted and frustrated and have no idea what they should be doing next. It's all so overwhelming and most people won't even know the sacrifices that have been made, whether we succeed or fail. I started all of this wanting to find my sister. She found me, and now I'm on a mission from a god to destroy Tallow. Every person that helps us at this point is immediately in harm's way.

Everyone that has helped us in the past... is in harm's way. That one is my fault. It's not something easy for me to forget, and Wylde seems to be intent on making sure I don't forget the part I played in all that danger.

*there is some smeared ink*

I need to get these thoughts and feelings down here so I can clear my head for the task ahead in the morning. I have to stand before Kelemvor again. I always feel so small and insignificant when I talk to him, and asking him to do this... it's such a big thing. It goes against his being.

They're back! And ... it was different this time! Maybe because I was able to repose them quickly enough? It doesn't matter, I'm grateful they're back and Kelemvor is always watching out for us.